I’m in weird place right now. I’m tired physically, mentally, emotionally, and even spiritually. I’m tired of fighting against my human emotions and thoughts and my faith.
My faith wants me to declare everything is going to be fine but my human emotions want me to realize things may infact, not be fine.
My faith wants me to believe a miracle is going to happen, but my human thoughts want me to realize that yes, miracles do happen, but they also don’t.
My faith tells me to not give in to my worry, but my human emotion is nothing but worry.
Spiritually, I am constantly fighting this battle that seems to have no end. I want to scream. I want to break everything within my reach. I want to watch things burn.
Physically, I am simply tired. I ache. Peace is found only in the moments I sleep.
Mentally, I desire the most mindless, the most thoughtless things to do, to give my mind, body, and soul a break. To escape the reality I am living. To cease to exists for a moment.
Emotionally, i can’t even begin to tell you which emotion I feel. It’s different from one second to the next. Do I even feel anymore?
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